Αυτο χαθ’ αυτο μεθ’ αυτου, μονο ειδες αιει ον.
Itself, by itself, solely, ONE everlasting, and single.
PLATO. Sympos.
WITH a feeling of deep yet most singular affection I regarded my friend Morella. Thrown by
accident into her society many years ago, my soul from our first meeting, burned with fires it had
never before known; but the fires were not of Eros, and bitter and tormenting to my spirit was the
gradual conviction that I could in no manner define their unusual meaning or regulate their vague
intensity. Yet we met; and fate bound us together at the altar, and I never spoke of passion nor
thought of love. She, however, shunned society, and, attaching herself to me alone rendered me
happy. It is a happiness to wonder; it is a happiness to dream.
Morella's erudition was profound. As I hope to live, her talents were of no common order-
her powers of mind were gigantic. I felt this, and, in many matters, became her pupil. I soon,
however, found that, perhaps on account of her Presburg education, she placed before me a
number of those mystical writings which are usually considered the mere dross of the early
German literature. These, for what reason I could not imagine, were her favourite and constant
study- and that in process of time they became my own, should be attributed to the simple but
effectual influence of habit and example.
In all this, if I err not, my reason had little to do. My convictions, or I forget myself, were in
no manner acted upon by the ideal, nor was any tincture of the mysticism which I read to be
discovered, unless I am greatly mistaken, either in my deeds or in my thoughts. Persuaded of this,
I abandoned myself implicitly to the guidance of my wife, and entered with an unflinching heart
into the intricacies of her studies. And then- then, when poring over forbidden pages, I felt a
forbidden spirit enkindling within me- would Morella place her cold hand upon my own, and rake
up from the ashes of a dead philosophy some low, singular words, whose strange meaning burned
themselves in upon my memory. And then, hour after hour, would I linger by her side, and dwell
upon the music of her voice, until at length its melody was tainted with terror, and there fell a
shadow upon my soul, and I grew pale, and shuddered inwardly at those too unearthly tones. And
thus, joy suddenly faded into horror, and the most beautiful became the most hideous, as Hinnon
became Ge-Henna.
It is unnecessary to state the exact character of those disquisitions which, growing out of the
volumes I have mentioned, formed, for so long a time, almost the sole conversation of Morella
and myself. By the learned in what might be termed theological morality they will be readily
conceived, and by the unlearned they would, at all events, be little understood. The wild
Pantheism of Fichte; the modified Paliggenedia of the Pythagoreans; and, above all, the doctrines
of Identity as urged by Schelling, were generally the points of discussion presenting the most of
beauty to the imaginative Morella. That identity which is termed personal, Mr. Locke, I think,
truly defines to consist in the saneness of rational being. And since by person we understand an
intelligent essence having reason, and since there is a consciousness which always accompanies
thinking, it is this which makes us all to be that which we call ourselves, thereby distinguishing us
from other beings that think, and giving us our personal identity. But the principium
indivduationis, the notion of that identity which at death is or is not lost for ever, was to me, at all
times, a consideration of intense interest; not more from the perplexing and exciting nature of its
consequences, than from the marked and agitated manner in which Morella mentioned them.