The explosion shattered windows hundreds of meters away, but started no fire. Later, I discovered that it had shown up on a seismograph at Macquarie University, fixing the time precisely: 3:52 a.m. Residents woken by the blast phoned emergency services within minutes, and our night shift oper-ator called me just after four, but there was no point rushing to the scene when I'd only be in the way. I sat at the terminal in my study for almost an hour, assembling background data and monitoring the radio traffic on headphones, drinking cof-fee and trying not to type too loudly.
By the time I arrived, the local fire service contractors had departed, having certified that there was no risk of further explosions, but our forensic people were still poring over the wreckage, the electric hum of their equipment all but drowned out by birdsong. Lane Cove was a quiet, leafy suburb, mixed residential and high-tech industrial, the lush vegetation of cor-porate open spaces blending almost seamlessly into the ad-jacent national park that straddled the Lane Cove River. The map of the area on my car terminal had identified suppliers of laboratory reagents and Pharmaceuticals, manufacturers of precision instruments for scientific and aerospace applications, and no less than twenty-seven biotechnology firms—includ-ing Life Enhancement International, the erstwhile sprawling concrete building now reduced to a collection of white pow-dery blocks clustered around twisted reinforcement rods. The exposed steel glinted in the early light, disconcertingly pris-tine; the building was only three years old. I could understand why the forensic team had ruled out an accident at their first glance; a few drums of organic solvent could not have done anything remotely like this. Nothing legally stored in a resi-dential zone could reduce a modern building to rubble in a matter of seconds.
I spotted Janet Lansing as I left my car. She was surveying the ruins with an expression of stoicism, but she was hugging herself. Mild shock, probably. She had no other reason to be chilly; it had been stinking hot all night, and the temperature was already climbing. Lansing was Director of the Lane Cove complex: forty-three years old, with a Ph.D. in molecular bi-ology from Cambridge, and an M.B.A. from an equally rep-utable Japanese virtual university. I'd had my knowledge miner extract her details, and photo, from assorted databases before I'd left home.
I approached her and said, "James Glass, Nexus Investi-gations." She frowned at my business card, but
accepted it, then glanced at the technicians trawling their gas chromato-graphs and holography equipment
around the perimeter of the ruins.
"They're yours, I suppose?"
"Yes. They've been here since four."
She smirked slightly. "What happens if I give the job to someone else? And charge the lot of you with
trespass?"
"If you hire another company, we'll be happy to hand over all the samples and data we've collected."
She nodded distractedly. "I'll hire you, of course. Since four? I'm impressed. You've even arrived before
the insur-ance people." As it happened, LEI's "insurance people" owned 49 percent of Nexus, and
would stay out of the way until we were finished, but I didn't see any reason to mention that. Lansing
added sourly, "Our so-called security firm only worked up the courage to phone me half an hour ago.
Evi-dently a fiber-optic junction box was sabotaged, disconnecting the whole area. They're supposed to
send in patrols in the event of equipment failure, but apparently they didn't bother."
I grimaced sympathetically. ' 'What exactly were you peo-ple making here?"
"Making? Nothing. We did no manufacturing; this was pure R & D."
In fact, I'd already established that LEI's factories were all in Thailand and Indonesia, with the head office
in Monaco, and research facilities scattered around the world. There's a fine line, though, between demonstrating that the facts are at your fingertips, and unnerving the client. A total stranger ought to
make at least one trivial wrong assumption, ask at least one misguided question. I always do.
"So what were you researching and developing?"
"That's commercially sensitive information."
I took my notepad from my shirt pocket and displayed a standard contract, complete with the usual
secrecy provisions. She glanced at it, then had her own computer scrutinize the document. Conversing in
modulated infrared, the machines rapidly negotiated the fine details. My notepad signed the agreement
electronically on my behalf, and Lansing's did the same, then they both chimed happily in unison to let us
know that the deal had been concluded.
Lansing said, ' 'Our main project here was engineering im-proved syncytiotrophoblastic cells." I smiled
patiently, and she translated for me. "Strengthening the barrier between the maternal and fetal blood
supplies. Mother and fetus don't share blood directly, but they exchange nutrients and hor-mones across
the placental barrier. The trouble is, all kinds of viruses, toxins, pharmaceuticals and illicit drugs can also
cross over. The natural barrier cells didn't evolve to cope with AIDS, fetal alcohol syndrome,
cocaine-addicted babies, or the next thalidomidelike disaster. We're aiming for a single intra-venous
injection of a gene-tailoring vector, which would trig-ger the formation of an extra layer of cells in the
appropriate structures within the placenta, specifically designed to shield the fetal blood supply from
contaminants in the maternal blood."
"A thicker barrier?"
"Smarter. More selective. More choosy about what it lets through. We know exactly what the
developing fetus actually needs from the maternal blood. These gene-tailored cells would contain specific
channels for transporting each of those substances. Nothing else would be allowed through."
"Very impressive." A cocoon around the unborn child, shielding it from all of the poisons of modern
society. It sounded exactly like the kind of beneficent technology a com-pany called Life Enhancement
would be hatching in leafy Lane Cove. True, even a layman could spot a few flaws in the scheme. I'd
heard that AIDS most often infected children during birth itself, not pregnancy—but presumably there
were other viruses that crossed the placental barrier more fre-quently. I had no idea whether or not
mothers at risk of giving birth to children stunted by alcohol or addicted to cocaine were likely to rush
out en masse and have gene-tailored fetal barriers installed—but I could picture a strong demand from
people terrified of food additives, pesticides, and pollutants. In the long term—if the system actually
worked, and wasn't prohibitively expensive—it could even become a part of rou-tine prenatal care.
Beneficent, and lucrative.
In any case—whether or not there were biological, eco-nomic, and social factors which might keep the
technology from being a complete success ... it was hard to imagine any-one objecting to the principle
of the thing.
I said, "Were you working with animals?"
Lansing scowled. "Only early calf embryos, and disem-bodied bovine uteruses on tissue-support
machines. If it was an animal rights group, they would have been better off bomb-ing an abattoir."
"Mmm." In the past few years, the Sydney chapter of An-imal Equality—the only group known to use
such extreme methods—-had concentrated on primate research facilities. They might have changed their
focus, or been misinformed, but LEI still seemed like an odd target; there were plenty of laboratories widely known to use whole, live rats and rabbits as if they were disposable test tubes—many of them
quite close by. "What about competitors?"
' 'No one else is pursuing this kind of product line, so far as I know. There's no race being run; we've
already obtained individual patents for all of the essential components—the membrane channels, the
transporter molecules—so any com-petitor would have to pay us license fees, regardless."
"What if someone simply wanted to damage you, finan-cially?' '
"Then they should have bombed one of the factories in-stead. Cutting off our cash flow would have been
the best way to hurt us; this laboratory wasn't earning a cent."
"Your share price will still take a dive, won't it? Nothing makes investors nervous quite so much as
terrorism."
Lansing agreed, reluctantly. "But then, whoever took ad-vantage of that and launched a takeover bid
would suffer the same taint, themselves. I don't deny that commercial sabotage takes place in this
industry, now and then... but not on a level as crude as this. Genetic engineering is a subtle business.
Bombs are for fanatics."
Perhaps. But who would be fanatically opposed to the idea of shielding human embryos from viruses and
poisons? Sev-eral religious sects flatly rejected any kind of modification to human biology ... but the ones
who employed violence were far more likely to have bombed a manufacturer of abortifa-cient drugs than
a laboratory dedicated to the task of safe-guarding the unborn child.
Elaine Chang, head of the forensic team, approached us. I introduced her to Lansing. Elaine said, "It was
a very pro-fessional job. If you'd hired demolition experts, they wouldn't have done a single thing
differently. But then, they probably would have used identical software to compute the timing and
placement of the charges." She held up her notepad, and dis-played a stylized reconstruction of the
building, with hypo-thetical explosive charges marked. She hit a button and the simulation crumbled into
something very like the actual mess behind us.
She continued, "Most reputable manufacturers these days imprint every batch of explosives with a trace
element sig-nature, which remains in the residue. We've linked the charges used here to a batch stolen
from a warehouse in Sin-gapore five years ago."
I added, "Which may not be a great help, though, I'm afraid. After five years on the black market, they
could have changed hands a dozen times."
Elaine returned to her equipment. Lansing was beginning to look a little dazed. I said, "I'd like to talk to
you again, later—but I am going to need a list of your employees, past and present, as soon as possible."
She nodded, and hit a few keys on her notepad, transferring the list to mine. She said, "Nothing's been
lost, really. We had off-site backup for all of our data, administrative and scientific. And we have frozen
samples of most of the cell lines we were working on, in a vault in Milson's Point."
Commercial data backup would be all but untouchable, with the records stored in a dozen or more
locations scattered around the world—heavily encrypted, of course. Cell lines sounded more vulnerable.
I said, "You'd better let the vault's operators know what's happened."
"I've already done that; I phoned them on my way here." She gazed at the wreckage. "The insurance
company will pay for the rebuilding. In six months' time, we'll be back on our feet. So whoever did this
was wasting their time. The work will go on."
I said, "Who would want to stop it in the first place?"
Lansing's faint smirk appeared again, and I very nearly asked her what she found so amusing. But people
often act incongruously in the face of disasters, large or small; nobody had died, she wasn't remotely
hysterical, but it would have been strange if a setback like this hadn't knocked her slightly out of kilter.
She said, "You tell me. That's your job, isn't it?"
Martin was in the living room when I arrived home that eve-ning. Working on his costume for the Mardi
Gras. I couldn't imagine what it would look like when it was completed, but there were definitely feathers
involved. Blue feathers. I did my best to appear composed, but I could tell from his ex-pression that he'd
caught an involuntary flicker of distaste on my face as he looked up. We kissed anyway, and said nothing
about it.
Over dinner, though, he couldn't help himself.
"Fortieth anniversary this year, James. Sure to be the big-gest yet. You could at least come and watch."
His eyes glinted; he enjoyed needling me. We'd had this argument five years running, and it was close to
becoming a ritual as point-less as the parade itself.
I said flatly, "Why would I want to watch ten thousand drag queens ride down Oxford Street, blowing
kisses to the tourists?"
"Don't exaggerate. There'll only be a thousand men in drag, at most."
"Yeah, the rest will be in sequined jockstraps."
"If you actually came and watched, you'd discover that most people's imaginations have progressed far
beyond that."
I shook my head, bemused. "If people's imaginations had progressed, there'd be no Gay and Lesbian
Mardi Gras at all. It's a freak show, for people who want to live in a cultural ghetto. Forty years ago, it
might have been ... provocative. Maybe it did some good, back then. But now? What's the point? There
are no laws left to change, there's no politics left to address. This kind of thing just recycles the same
mo-ronic stereotypes, year after year."
Martin said smoothly, "It's a public reassertion of the right to diverse sexuality. Just because it's no longer
a protest march as well as a celebration doesn't mean it's irrelevant. And complaining about stereotypes
is like ... complaining about the characters in a medieval morality play. The cos-tumes are code,
shorthand. Give the great unwashed hetero-sexual masses credit for some intelligence; they don't watch
the parade and conclude that the average gay man spends all his time in a gold lame tutu. People aren't
that literal-minded. They all learnt semiotics in kindergarten, they know how to decode the message."
"I'm sure they do. But it's still the wrong message: it makes exotic what ought to be mundane. Okay,
people have the right to dress up any way they like and march down Ox-ford Street... but it means
absolutely nothing to me."
"I'm not asking you to join in—"
"Very wise."
''—but if one hundred thousand straights can turn up, to show their support for the gay community, why
can't you?"
I said wearily, "Because every time I hear the word com-munity, I know I'm being manipulated. If there
is such a thing as the gay community, I'm certainly not a part of it. As it happens, I don't want to spend
my life watching gay and lesbian television channels, using gay and lesbian news sys-tems ... or going
to gay and lesbian street parades. It's all so ... proprietary. You'd think there was a multinational
cor-poration who had the franchise rights on homosexuality. And if you don't market the product their
way, you're some kind of second-class, inferior, bootleg, unauthorized queer."
Martin cracked up. When he finally stopped laughing, he said, "Go on. I'm waiting for you to get to the
part where you say you're no more proud of being gay than you are of having brown eyes, or black hair,
or a birthmark behind your left knee."
I protested. "That's true. Why should I be 'proud' of some-thing I was born with? I'm not proud, or
ashamed. I just accept it. And I don't have to join a parade to prove that."
"So you'd rather we all stayed invisible?"
"Invisible! You're the one who told me that the represen-tation rates in movies and TV last year were
close to the true demographics. And if you hardly even notice it anymore when an openly gay or lesbian
politician gets elected, that's because it's no longer an issue. To most people, now, it's about as
significant as ... being left or right handed."
Martin seemed to find this suggestion surreal. "Are you trying to tell me that it's now a non-subject? That
the inhab-itants of this planet are now absolutely impartial on the ques-tion of sexual preference? Your
faith is touching—but..." He mimed incredulity.
I said, "We're equal before the law with any heterosexual couple, aren't we? And when was the last time
you told some-one you were gay and they so much as blinked? And yes, I know, there are dozens of
countries where it's still illegal— along with joining the wrong political parties, or the wrong religions.
Parades in Oxford Street aren't going to change that:'
"People are still bashed in this city. People are still dis-criminated against."
' 'Yeah. And people are also shot dead in peak-hour traffic for playing the wrong music on their car
stereos, or denied jobs because they live in the wrong suburbs. I'm not talking about the perfection of
human nature. I just want you to ac-knowledge one tiny victory: leaving out a few psychotics, and a few
fundamentalist bigots ... most people just don't care."
Martin said ruefully, "If only that were true!"
The argument went on for more than an hour—ending in a stalemate, as usual. But then, neither one of us
had seriously expected to change the other's mind.
I did catch myself wondering afterward, though, if I really believed all of my own optimistic rhetoric.
About as signifi-cant as being left or right handed? Certainly, that was the line taken by most
Western politicians, academics, essayists, talk show hosts, soap opera writers, and mainstream religious
leaders ... but the same people had been espousing equally high-minded principles of racial equality for
decades, and the reality still hadn't entirely caught up on that front. I'd suffered very little discrimination,
myself—by the time I reached high school, tolerance was hip, and I'd witnessed a constant stream of
improvements since then ... but how could I ever know precisely how much hidden prejudice remained?
By interro-gating my own straight friends? By reading the sociologists' latest attitude surveys? People will
always tell you what they think you want to hear.
Still, it hardly seemed to matter. Personally, I could get by without the deep and sincere approval of every other member of the human race. Martin and I were lucky enough to have been born into a time
and place where, in almost every tan-gible respect, we were treated as equal.
What more could anyone hope for?
In bed that night, we made love very slowly, at first just kissing and stroking each other's bodies for what
seemed like hours. Neither of us spoke, and in the stupefying heat I lost all sense of belonging to any
other time, any other reality. Nothing existed but the two of us; the rest of the world, the rest of my life,
went spinning away into the darkness.
The investigation moved slowly. I interviewed every current member of LEI's workforce, then started on
the long list of past employees. I still believed that commercial sabotage was the most likely explanation
for such a professional job—but blowing up the opposition is a desperate measure; a little civ-ilized
espionage usually comes first. I was hoping that some-one who'd worked for LEI might have been
approached in the past and offered money for inside information—and if I could find just one employee
who'd turned down a bribe, they might have learnt something useful from their contact with the presumed
rival.
Although the Lane Cove facility had only been built three years before, LEI had operated a research
division in Sydney for twelve years before that, in North Ryde, not far away. Many of the ex-employees
from that period had moved inter-state or overseas; quite a few had been transferred to LEI divisions in
other countries. Still, almost no one had changed their personal phone numbers, so I had very little
trouble tracking them down.
The exception was a biochemist named Catherine Mendel-sohn; the number listed for her in the LEI staff
records had been canceled. There were seventeen people with the same surname and initials in the
national phone directory; none ad-mitted to being Catherine Alice Mendelsohn, and none looked at all
like the staff photo I had.
Mendelsohn's address in the Electoral Roll, an apartment in Newtown, matched the LEI records—but
the same address was in the phone directory (and Electoral Roll) for Stanley Goh, a young man who told
me that he'd never met Men-delsohn. He'd been leasing the apartment for the past eighteen months.
Credit rating databases gave the same out-of-date address. I couldn't access tax, banking, or utilities
records without a warrant. I had my knowledge miner scan the death notices, but there was no match
there.
Mendelsohn had worked for LEI until about a year before the move to Lane Cove. She'd been part of a
team working on a gene-tailoring system for ameliorating menstrual side-effects, and although the Sydney
division had always spe-cialized in gynecological research, for some reason the project was about to be
moved to Texas. I checked the industry publications; apparently, LEI had been rearranging all of its
operations at the time, gathering together projects from around the globe into new multi-disciplinary
configurations, in ac-cordance with the latest fashionable theories of research dy-namics. Mendelsohn
had declined the transfer, and had been retrenched.
I dug deeper. The staff records showed that Mendelsohn had been questioned by security guards after
being found on the North Ryde premises late at night, two days before her dismissal. Workaholic
biotechnologists aren't uncommon, but starting the day at two in the morning shows exceptional
ded-ication, especially when the company has just tried to shuffle you off to Amarillo. Having turned
down the transfer, she must have known what was in store.
Nothing came of the incident, though. And even if Men-delsohn had been planning some minor act of
sabotage, that hardly established any connection with a bombing four years later. She might have been angry enough to leak confidential information to one of LEI's rivals... but whoever had bombed the Lane
Cove laboratory would have been more in-terested in someone who'd worked on the fetal barrier
project itself—a project which had only come into existence a year after Mendelsohn had been sacked.
I pressed on through the list. Interviewing the ex-employees was frustrating; almost all of them were still
working in the biotechnology industry, and they would have been an ideal group to poll on the question
of who would benefit most from LEI's misfortune—but the confidentiality agreement I'd signed meant
that I couldn't disclose anything about the re-search in question—not even to people working for LEI's
other divisions.
The one thing which I could discuss drew a blank: if any-one had been offered a bribe, they weren't
talking about it— and no magistrate was going to sign a warrant letting me loose on a fishing expedition
through a hundred and seventeen peo-ple's financial records.
Forensic examination of the ruins, and the sabotaged fiber-optic exchange, had yielded the usual
catalogue of minutiae which might eventually turn out to be invaluable—but none of it was going to
conjure up a suspect out of thin air.
Four days after the bombing—just as I found myself grow-ing desperate for a fresh angle on the case—I
had a call from Janet Lansing.
The backup samples of the project's gene-tailored cell lines had been destroyed.
The vault in Milson's Point turned out to be directly under-neath a section of the Harbor Bridge—built
right into the foundations on the north shore. Lansing hadn't arrived yet, but the head of security for the
storage company, an elderly man called David Asher, showed me around. Inside, the traffic was barely
audible, but the vibration coming through the floor felt like a constant mild earthquake. The place was
cavernous, dry and cool. At least a hundred cryogenic freezers were laid out in rows; heavily clad pipes
ran between them, replenishing their liquid nitrogen.
Asher was understandably morose, but cooperative. Cellu-loid movie film had been archived here, he
explained, before everything went digital; the present owners specialized in bi-ological materials. There
were no guards physically assigned to the vault, but the surveillance cameras and alarm systems looked
impressive, and the structure itself must have been close to impregnable.
Lansing had phoned the storage company, Biofile, on the morning of the bombing. Asher confirmed that
he'd sent someone down from their North Sydney office to check the freezer in question. Nothing was
missing—but he'd promised to boost security measures immediately. Because the freezers were
supposedly tamper-proof, and individually locked, cli-ents were normally allowed access to the vault at
their con-venience, monitored by the surveillance cameras, but otherwise unsupervised. Asher had
promised Lansing that, henceforth, nobody would enter the building without a mem-ber of his staff to
accompany them—and he claimed that no-body had been inside since the day of the bombing, anyway.
When two LEI technicians had arrived that morning to carry out an inventory, they'd found the expected
number of culture flasks, all with the correct bar code labels, all tightly sealed—but the appearance of
their contents was subtly wrong. The translucent frozen colloid was more opalescent than cloudy; an
untrained eye might never have noticed the difference, but apparently it spoke volumes to the
cognoscenti.
The technicians had taken a number of the flasks away for analysis; LEI were working out of temporary
premises, a sub-leased corner of a paint manufacturer's quality control lab. Lansing had promised me
preliminary test results by the time we met.
Lansing arrived, and unlocked the freezer. With gloved hands, she lifted a flask out of the swirling mist
and held it up for me to inspect.
She said, "We've only thawed three samples, but they all look the same. The cells have been torn apart."
"How?" The flask was covered with such heavy conden-sation that I couldn't have said if it was empty or
full, let alone cloudy or opalescent.
"It looks like radiation damage."
My skin crawled. I peered into the depths of the freezer; all I could make out were the tops of rows of
identical flasks—but if one of them had been spiked with a radioiso-tope...
Lansing scowled. "Relax." She tapped a small electronic badge pinned to her lab coat, with a dull gray
face like a solar cell: a radiation dosimeter. "This would be screaming if we were being exposed to
anything significant. Whatever the source of the radiation was, it's no longer in here—and it hasn't left the
walls glowing. Your future offspring are safe."
I let that pass. "You think all the samples will turn out to be ruined? You won't be able to salvage
anything?"
Lansing was stoical as ever. ' 'It looks that way. There are some elaborate techniques we could use, to
try to repair the DNA—but it will probably be easier to synthesize fresh DNA from scratch, and
re-introduce it into unmodified bovine pla-cental cell lines. We still have all the sequence data; that's what
matters in the end."
I pondered the freezer's locking system, the surveillance cameras. ' 'Are you sure that the source was
inside the freezer? Or could the damage have been done without actually break-ing in—right through the
walls?"
She thought it over. "Maybe. There's not much metal in these things; they're mostly plastic foam. But I'm
not a ra-diation physicist; your forensic people will probably be able to give you a better idea of what
happened, once they've checked out the freezer itself. If there's damage to the poly-mers in the foam, it
might be possible to use that to recon-struct the geometry of the radiation field."
A forensic team was on its way. I said, "How would they have done it? Walked casually by, and just—?"
"Hardly. A source which could do this in one quick hit would have been unmanageable. It's far more
likely to have been a matter of weeks, or months, of low-level exposure."
"So they must have smuggled some kind of device into
their own freezer, and aimed it at yours? But then... we'll be able to trace the effects right back to the
source, won't we? So how could they have hoped to get away with it?''
Lansing said, "It's even simpler than that. We're talking about a modest amount of a gamma-emitting
isotope, not some billion-dollar particle-beam weapon. The effective range would be a couple of meters,
at most. If it was done from the outside, you've just narrowed down your suspect list to two." She
thumped the freezer's left neighbor in the aisle, then did the same to the one on the right—and said,
"Aha."
"What?"
She thumped them both again. The second one sounded hollow. I said, "No liquid nitrogen? It's not in use?"
Lansing nodded. She reached for the handle.
Asher said, "I don't think—"
The freezer was unlocked, the lid swung open easily. Lan-sing's badge started beeping—and, worse,
there was some-thing in there, with batteries and wires....
I don't know what kept me from knocking her to the floor—but Lansing, untroubled, lifted the lid all the
way. She said mildly, "Don't panic; this dose rate's nothing. Threshold of detectable."
The thing inside looked superficially like a home-made bomb—but the batteries and timer chip I'd
glimpsed were wired to a heavy-duty solenoid, which was part of an elabo-rate shutter mechanism on
one side of a large, metallic gray box.
Lansing said, ' 'Cannibalized medical source, probably. You know these things have turned up in
garbage dumps?" She unpinned her badge and waved it near the box; the pitch of the alarm increased,
but only slightly. ' 'Shielding seems to be intact."
I said, as calmly as possible, ' 'These people have access to high explosives. You don't have any idea
what the fuck might be in there, or what it's wired up to do. This is the point where we walk out, quietly,
and leave it to the bomb-disposal robots."
She seemed about to protest, but then she nodded contritely. The three of us went up onto the street,
and Asher called the local terrorist services contractor. I suddenly realized that they'd have to divert all
traffic from the bridge. The Lane Cove bombing had received some perfunctory media cover-age—but
this would lead the evening news.
I took Lansing aside. "They've destroyed your laboratory. They've wiped out your cell lines. Your data
may be almost impossible to locate and corrupt—so the next logical target is you and your employees.
Nexus doesn't provide protective services, but I can recommend a good firm."
I gave her the phone number; she accepted it with appro-priate solemnity. "So you finally believe me?
These people aren't commercial saboteurs. They're dangerous fanatics."
I was growing impatient with her vague references to "fa-natics."
"Who exactly do you have in mind?"
She said darkly, ' 'We're tampering with certain ... natural processes. You can draw your own
conclusions, can't you?"
There was no logic to that at all. God's Image would prob-ably want to force all pregnant women with
HIV infections, or drug habits, to use the cocoon; they wouldn't try to bomb the technology out of
existence. Gaia's Soldiers were more concerned with genetically engineered crops and bacteria than
trivial modifications to insignificant species like humans—and they wouldn't have used radioisotopes if
the fate of the planet depended on it. Lansing was beginning to sound thoroughly paranoid—although in
the circumstances, I couldn't really blame her.
I said, "I'm not drawing any conclusions. I'm just advising you to take some sensible precautions, because
we have no way of knowing how far this might escalate. But... Biofile must lease freezer space to every
one of your competitors. A commercial rival would have found it a thousand times easier than any
hypothetical sect member to get into the vault to plant that thing."
A gray armor-plated van screeched to a halt in front of us; the back door swung up, ramps slid down,
and a squat, multi-limbed robot on treads descended. I raised a hand in greeting and the robot did the
same; the operator was a friend of mine.
Lansing said, "You may be right. But then, there's nothing to stop a terrorist from having a day job in
biotechnology, is there?"
The device turned out not to be booby-trapped at all—just rigged to spray LEI's precious cells with
gamma rays for six hours, starting at midnight, every night. Even in the unlikely event that someone had
come into the vault in the early hours and wedged themselves into the narrow gap between the freezers,
the dose they received would not have been much; as Lansing had suggested, it was the cumulative effect
over months which had done the damage. The radioisotope in the box was cobalt 60, almost certainly a
decomissioned medical source—grown too weak for its original use, but still too hot to be
discarded—stolen from a "cooling off" site. No such theft had been reported, but Elaine Chang's
assistants were phoning around the hospitals, trying to persuade them to re-inventory their concrete
bunkers.
Cobalt 60 was dangerous stuff—but fifty milligrams in a carefully shielded container wasn't exactly a
tactical nuclear weapon. The news systems went berserk, though: ATOMIC TERRORISTS STRIKE
HARBOR BRIDGE, et cetera. If LEI's enemies were activists, with some "moral cause" which they
hoped to set before the public, they clearly had the worst PR advisers in the business. Their prospects of
gain-ing the slightest sympathy had vanished, the instant the first news reports had mentioned the word
radiation.
My secretarial software issued polite statements of "No comment" on my behalf, but camera crews
began hovering outside my front door, so I relented and mouthed a few news-speak sentences for them
which meant essentially the same thing. Martin looked on, amused—and then I looked on, astonished, as
Janet Lansing's own doorstop media conference appeared on TV.
"These people are clearly ruthless. Human life, the envi-ronment, radioactive contamination ... all mean
nothing to them."
' 'Do you have any idea who might be responsible for this outrage, Dr. Lansing?"
"I can't disclose that, yet. All I can reveal, right now, is that our research is at the very cutting edge of
preventative medicine—and I'm not at all surprised that there are powerful vested interests working
against us."
Powerful vested interests? What was that meant to be code for—if not the rival biotechnology firm
whose involvement she kept denying? No doubt she had her eye on the publicity advantages of being the
victim of ATOMIC TERRORISTS— but I thought she was wasting her breath. In two or more years'
time, when the product finally hit the market, the story would be long forgotten.
After some tricky jurisdictional negotiations, Asher finally sent me six months' worth of files from the
vault's surveil-lance cameras—all that they kept. The freezer in question had been unused for almost two
years; the last authorized tenant was a small IVF clinic which had gone bankrupt. Only about 60 percent
of the freezers were currently leased, so it wasn't particularly surprising that LEI had had a conveniently
empty neighbor.
I ran the surveillance files through image-processing soft-ware, in the hope that someone might have been
caught in the act of opening the unused freezer. The search took almost an hour of supercomputer
time—and turned up precisely nothing. A few minutes later, Elaine Chang popped her head into my office
to say that she'd finished her analysis of the damage to the freezer walls: the nightly irradiation had been
going on for between eight and nine months.
Undeterred, I scanned the files again, this time instructing the software to assemble a gallery of every
individual sighted inside the vault.
Sixty-two faces emerged. I put company names to all of them, matching the times of each sighting to
Biofile's records of the use of each client's electronic key. No obvious incon-sistencies showed up;
nobody had been seen inside who hadn't used an authorized key to gain access—and the same people
had used the same keys, again and again.
I flicked through the gallery, wondering what to do next. Search for anyone glancing slyly in the
direction of the ra-dioactive freezer? The software could have done it—but I wasn't quite ready for
barrel-scraping efforts like that.
I came to a face which looked familiar: a blonde woman in her mid-thirties, who'd used the key belonging
to Federa-tion Centennial Hospital's Oncology Research Unit, three times. I was certain that I knew her,
but I couldn't recall where I'd seen her before. It didn't matter; after a few sec-onds' searching, I found a
clear shot of the name badge pinned to her lab coat. All I had to do was zoom in.
The badge read: C. MENDELSOHN.
There was a knock on my open door. I turned from the screen; Elaine was back, looking pleased with
herself.
She said, "We've finally found a place who'll own up to having lost some cobalt 60. What's more... the
activity of our source fits their missing item's decay curve, exactly."
"So where was it stolen from?"
"Federation Centennial."
I phoned the Oncology Research Unit. Yes, Catherine Men-delsohn worked there—she'd done so for
almost four years— but they couldn't put me through to her; she'd been on sick leave all week. They
gave me the same canceled phone num-ber as LEI—but a different address, an apartment in Peter-sham.
The address wasn't listed in the phone directory; I'd have to go there in person.
A cancer research team would have no reason to want to harm LEI, but a commercial rival—with or
without their own key to the vault—could still have paid Mendelsohn to do their work for them. It
seemed like a lousy deal to me, whatever they'd offered her—if she was convicted, every last cent would
be traced and confiscated—but bitterness over her sacking might have clouded her judgment.
Maybe. Or maybe that was all too glib.
I replayed the shots of Mendelsohn taken by the surveil-lance cameras. She did nothing unusual, nothing
suspicious. She went straight to the ORU's freezer, put in whatever sam-ples she'd brought, and
departed. She didn't glance slyly in any direction at all.
The fact that she had been inside the vault—on legitimate business—proved nothing. The fact that the
cobalt 60 had been stolen from the hospital where she worked could have been pure coincidence.
And anyone had the right to cancel their phone service.
I pictured the steel reinforcement rods of the Lane Cove laboratory, glinting in the sunlight.
On the way out, reluctantly, I took a detour to the basement. I sat at a console while the armaments safe
checked my fin-gerprints, took breath samples and a retinal blood spectro-gram, ran some
perception-and-judgment response time tests, then quizzed me for five minutes about the case. Once it
was satisfied with my reflexes, my motives, and my state of mind, it issued me a nine-millimeter pistol and
a shoulder holster.
Mendelsohn's apartment block was a concrete box from the 1960s, front doors opening onto long
shared balconies, no security at all. I arrived just after seven, to the smell of cook-ing and the sound of
game show applause, wafting from a hundred open windows. The concrete still shimmered with the day's
heat; three flights of stairs left me coated in sweat. Men-delsohn's apartment was silent, but the lights
were on.
She answered the door. I introduced myself, and showed her my ID. She seemed nervous, but not
surprised.
She said, ' 'I still find it galling to have to deal with people like you."
"People like—?"
"I was opposed to privatizing the police force. I helped organize some of the marches."
She would have been fourteen years old at the time—a precocious political activist.
She let me in, begrudgingly. The living room was modestly furnished, with a terminal on a desk in one
corner.
I said, "I'm investigating the bombing of Life Enhance-ment International. You used to work for them, up
until about four years ago. Is that correct?"
"Yes."
"Can you tell me why you left?"
She repeated what I knew about the transfer of her project to the Amarillo division. She answered every
question directly, looking me straight in the eye; she still appeared nervous, but she seemed to be trying
to read some vital piece of information from my demeanor. Wondering if I'd traced the cobalt?
"What were you doing on the North Ryde premises at two in the morning, two days before you were
sacked?''
She said, "I wanted to find out what LEI was planning for the new building. I wanted to know why they
didn't want me to stick around."
"Your job was moved to Texas."
She laughed drily. "The work wasn't that specialized. I could have swapped jobs with someone who
wanted to travel to the States. It would have been the perfect solution—and there would have been
plenty of people more than happy to trade places with me. But no, that wasn't allowed."
"So ... did you find the answer?"
"Not that night. But later, yes."
I said carefully, ' 'So you knew what LEI was doing in Lane Cove?"
"Yes."
"How did you discover that?"
"I kept an ear to the ground. Nobody who'd stayed on would have told me directly, but word leaked
out, eventually. About a year ago."
"Three years after you'd left? Why were you still inter-ested? Did you think there was a market for the
information?''
She said, "Put your notepad in the bathroom sink and run the tap on it."
I hesitated, then complied. When I returned to the living room, she had her face in her hands. She looked
up at me grimly.
"Why was I still interested? Because I wanted to know why every project with any lesbian or gay team
members was be-ing transferred out of the division. I wanted to know if that was pure coincidence. Or
not."
I felt a sudden chill in the pit of my stomach. I said, "If you had some problem with discrimination, there
are avenues you could have—"
Mendelsohn shook her head impatiently. "LEI was never discriminatory. They didn't sack anyone who
was willing to move—and they always transferred the entire team; there was nothing so crude as picking
out individuals by sexual pref-erence. And they had a rationalization for everything: projects were being
re-grouped between divisions to facilitate 'syner-gistic cross-pollination.' And if that sounds like
pretentious bullshit, it was—but it was plausible pretentious bullshit. Other corporations have adopted far
more ridiculous schemes, in perfect sincerity."
"But if it wasn't a matter of discrimination ... why should LEI want to force people out of one particular
division—?"
I think I'd finally guessed the answer, even as I said those words—but I needed to hear her spell it out,
before I could really believe it.
Mendelsohn must have been practicing her version for non-biochemists; she had it down pat. "When
people are subject to stress—physical or emotional—the levels of certain sub-stances in the bloodstream
increase. Cortisol and adrenaline, mainly. Adrenaline has a rapid, short-term effect on the ner-vous
system. Cortisol works on a much longer time frame, modulating all kinds of bodily processes, adapting
them for hard times: injury, fatigue, whatever. If the stress is pro-longed, someone's cortisol can be
elevated for days, or weeks, or months.
"High enough levels of cortisol, in the bloodstream of a pregnant woman, can cross the placental barrier
and interact with the hormonal system of the developing fetus. There are parts of the brain where
embryonic development is switched into one of two possible pathways, by hormones released by the
fetal testes or ovaries. The parts of the brain which control body image, and the parts which control
sexual preference. Female embryos usually develop a brain wired with a self-image of a female body,
and the strongest potential for sexual attraction toward males. Male embryos, vice versa. And it's the sex
hormones in the fetal bloodstream which let the grow-ing neurons know the gender of the embryo, and
which wiring pattern to adopt.
"Cortisol can interfere with this process. The precise in-teractions are complex, but the ultimate effect
depends on the timing; different parts of the brain are switched into gender-specific versions at different
stages of development. So stress at different times during pregnancy leads to different patterns of sexual
preference and body image in the child: homosexual, bisexual, transsexual.
"Obviously, a lot depends on the mother's biochemistry. Pregnancy itself is stressful—but everyone
responds to that differently. The first sign that cortisol might have an effect came in studies in the 1980s,
on the children of German women who'd been pregnant during the most intense bombing raids of World
War II—when the stress was so great that the effect showed through despite individual differences. In
the nineties, researchers thought they'd found a gene which de-termined male homosexuality ... but it was
always maternally inherited—and it turned out to be influencing the mother's stress response, rather than
acting directly on the child.
"If maternal cortisol, and other stress hormones, were kept from reaching the fetus ... then the gender of
the brain would always match the gender of the body in every respect. All of the present variation would
be wiped out."
I was shaken, but I don't think I let it show. Everything she said rang true; I didn't doubt a word of it. I'd
always known that sexual preference was decided before birth. I'd known that I was gay, myself, by the
age of seven. I'd never sought out the elaborate biological details, though—because I'd never believed
that the tedious mechanics of the process could ever matter to me. What turned my blood to ice was not
finally learning the neuroembryology of desire. The shock was discovering that LEI planned to reach
into the womb and take control of it.
I pressed on with the questioning in a kind of trance, put-ting my own feelings into suspended animation.
I said, "LEI's barrier is for filtering out viruses and toxins. You're talking about a natural substance
which has been pres-ent for millions of years—''
"LEI's barrier will keep out everything they deem non-essential. The fetus doesn't need maternal cortisol
in order to survive. If LEI doesn't explicitly include transporters for it, it won't get through. And I'll give
you one guess what their plans are."
I said, "You're being paranoid. You think LEI would in-vest millions of dollars just to take part in a
conspiracy to rid the world of homosexuals?"
Mendelsohn looked at me pityingly. "It's not a conspiracy. It's a marketing opportunity. LEI doesn't
give a shit about the sexual politics. They could put in cortisol transporters, and sell the barrier as an
anti-viral, anti-drug, anti-pollution screen. Or, they could leave them out, and sell it as all of that—plus a
means of guaranteeing a heterosexual child. Which do you think would earn the most money?"
That question hit a nerve; I said angrily, "And you had so little faith in people's choice that you bombed
the laboratory so that no one would ever have the chance to decide?"
Mendelsohn's expression turned stony. "I did not bomb LEI. Or irradiate their freezer."
"No? We've traced the cobalt 60 to Federation Centen-nial."
She looked stunned for a moment, then she said, "Con-gratulations. Six thousand other people work
there, you know. I'm obviously not the only one of them who'd discovered what LEI is up to."
"You're the only one with access to the Biofile vault. What do you expect me to believe? That having
learnt about this project, you were going to do absolutely nothing about it?"
"Of course not! And I still plan to publicize what they're doing. Let people know what it will mean. Try to
get the issue debated before the product appears in a blaze of misinfor-mation."
"You said you've known about the work for a year."
"Yes—and I've spent most of that time trying to verify all the facts, before opening my big mouth.
Nothing would have been stupider than going public with half-baked rumors. I've only told about a dozen
people so far, but we were going to launch a big publicity campaign to coincide with this year's Mardi
Gras. Although now, with the bombing, everything's a thousand times more complicated." She spread her
hands in a gesture of helplessness. "But we still have to do what we can, to try to keep the worst from
happening."
"The worst?"
"Separatism. Paranoia. Homosexuality redefined as path-ological. Lesbians and sympathetic straight
women looking for their own technological means to guarantee the survival of the culture ... while the
religious far-right try to prosecute them for poisoning their babies ... with a substance God's been
happily 'poisoning' babies with for the last few thousand years! Sexual tourists traveling from wealthy
countries where the technology is in use, to poorer countries where it isn't."
I was sickened by the vision she was painting—but I pushed on. "These dozen friends of yours—?"
Mendelsohn said dispassionately, "Go fuck yourself. I've got nothing more to say to you. I've told you the
truth. I'm not a criminal. And I think you'd better leave."
I went to the bathroom and collected my notepad. In the doorway, I said, "If you're not a criminal, why
are you so hard to track down?"
Wordlessly, contemptuously, she lifted her shirt and showed me the bruises below her rib cage—fading,
but still an ugly sight. Whoever it was who'd beaten her—an ex-lover?—I could hardly blame her for
doing everything she could to avoid a repeat performance.
On the stairs, I hit the REPLAY button on my notepad. The software computed the frequency spectrum
for the noise of the running water, subtracted it out of the recording, and then amplified and cleaned up
what remained. Every word of our conversation came through crystal clear.
From my car, I phoned a surveillance firm and arranged to have Mendelsohn kept under
twenty-four-hour observation.
Halfway home, I stopped in a side street, and sat behind the wheel for ten minutes, unable to think,
unable to move.
In bed that night, I asked Martin, "You're left-handed. How would you feel if no one was ever born
left-handed again?''
"It wouldn't bother me in the least. Why?"
"You wouldn't think of it as a kind of... genocide?"
"Hardly. What's this all about?"
"Nothing. Forget it."
"You're shaking."
"I'm cold."
"You don't feel cold to me."
As we made love—tenderly, then savagely—I thought: This is our language, this is our dialect. Wars
have been fought over less. And if this language ever dies out, a people will have vanished from
the face of the Earth.
I knew I had to drop the case. If Mendelsohn was guilty, someone else could prove it. To go on working
for LEI would destroy me.
Afterward, though ... that seemed like sentimental bullshit. I belonged to no tribe. Every human being
possessed their own sexuality—and when they died, it died with them. If no one was ever born gay
again, it made no difference to me.
And if I dropped the case because I was gay, I'd be aban-doning everything I'd ever believed about my
own equality, my own identity ... not to mention giving LEI the chance to announce: Yes, of course we
hired an investigator without regard to sexual preference—but apparently, that was a mis-take.
Staring up into the darkness, I said, ' 'Every time I hear the word community, I reach for my revolver."
There was no response; Martin was fast asleep. I wanted to wake him, I wanted to argue it all through,
there and then— but I'd signed an agreement, I couldn't tell him a thing.
So I watched him sleep, and tried to convince myself that when the truth came out, he'd understand.
I phoned Janet Lansing, brought her up to date on Mendel-sohn—and said coldly, "Why were you so
coy? 'Fanatics'? 'Powerful vested interests'? Are there some words you have trouble pronouncing?"
She'd clearly prepared herself for this moment. "I didn't want to plant my own ideas in your head. Later
on, that might have been seen as prejudicial."
"Seen as prejudicial by whomV It was a rhetorical ques-tion: the media, of course. By keeping silent on
the issue, she'd minimized the risk of being seen to have launched a witch-hunt. Telling me to go look for
homosexual terrorists might have put LEI in a very unsympathetic light... whereas my finding
Mendelsohn—for other reasons entirely, despite my ignorance—would come across as proof that the
investi-gation had been conducted without any preconceptions.
I said, "You had your suspicions, and you should have disclosed them. At the very least, you should have
told me what the barrier was for."
"The barrier," she said, "is for protection against viruses and toxins. But anything we do to the body has
side effects. It's not my role to judge whether or not those side effects are acceptable; the regulatory
authorities will insist that we pub-licize all of the consequences of using the product—and then the
decision will be up to consumers."
Very neat: the government would twist their arm, "forcing them" to disclose their major selling point!
"And what does your market research tell you?"
"That's strictly confidential."
I very nearly asked her: When exactly did you find out that I was gay? After you'd hired me—or
before ? On the morning of the bombing, while I'd been assembling a dossier on Janet Lansing ... had
she been assembling dossiers on all of the people who might have bid for the investigation? And had she
found the ultimate PR advantage, the ultimate seal of im-partiality, just too tempting to resist?
I didn't ask. I still wanted to believe that it made no dif-ference: she'd hired me, and I'd solve the crime
like any other, and nothing else would matter.
I went to the bunker where the cobalt had been stored, at the edge of Federation Centennial's grounds.
The trapdoor was solid, but the lock was a joke, and there was no alarm system at all; any smart
twelve-year-old could have broken in. Crates full of all kinds of (low-level, shortlived) radioactive waste
were stacked up to the ceiling, blocking most of the light from the single bulb; it was no wonder that the
theft hadn't been detected sooner. There were even cobwebs—but no mutant spiders, so far as I could
see.
After five minutes poking around, listening to my borrowed dosimetry badge adding up the exposure, I
was glad to get out... whether or not the average chest X-ray would have done ten times more damage.
Hadn't Mendelsohn realized that: how irrational people were about radiation, how much harm it
would do her cause once the cobalt was discovered? Or had her own—fully informed—knowledge of
the minimal risks distorted her perception?
The surveillance teams sent me reports daily. It was an expensive service, but LEI was paying.
Mendelsohn met her friends openly—telling them all about the night I'd ques-tioned her, warning them in
outraged tones that they were almost certainly being watched. They discussed the fetal bar-rier, the
options for—legitimate—opposition, the problems the bombing had caused them. I couldn't tell if the
whole thing was being staged for my benefit, or if Mendelsohn was deliberately contacting only those
friends who genuinely be-lieved that she hadn't been involved.
I spent most of my time checking the histories of the people she met. I could find no evidence of past
violence or sabotage by any of them—let alone experience with high explosives. But then, I hadn't
seriously expected to be led straight to the bomber.
All I had was circumstantial evidence. All I could do was gather detail after detail, and hope that the
mountain of facts I was assembling would eventually reach a critical mass—or that Mendelsohn would
slip up, cracking under the pressure.
Weeks passed, and Mendelsohn continued to brazen it out. She even had pamphlets printed, ready to
distribute at the Mardi Gras—condemning the bombing as loudly as they con-demned LEI for its
secrecy.
The nights grew hotter. My temper frayed. I don't know what Martin thought was happening to me, but I
had no idea how we were going to survive the impending revelations. I couldn't begin to face up to the
magnitude of the backlash there'd be once ATOMIC TERRORISTS met GAY BABY-POISONERS in
the daily murdochs—and it would make no difference whether it was Mendelsohn's arrest which broke
the news to the public, or her media conference blowing the whistle on LEI and proclaiming her own
innocence; either way, the investigation would become a circus. I tried not to think about any of it; it was
too late to do anything differently, to drop the case, to tell Martin the truth. So I worked on my tunnel
vision.
Elaine scoured the radioactive waste bunker for evidence, but weeks of analysis came up blank. I
quizzed the Biofile guards, who (supposedly) would have been watching the whole thing on their monitors
when the cobalt was planted, but nobody could recall a client with an unusually large and oddly shaped
item, wandering casually into the wrong aisle.
I finally obtained the warrants I needed to scrutinize Men-delsohn's entire electronic history since birth.
She'd been ar-rested exactly once, twenty years before, for kicking an— unprivatized—policeman in the
shin, during a protest he'd probably, privately, applauded. The charges had been dropped. She'd had a court order in force for the last eighteen months, restraining a former lover from coming within a
kil-ometer of her home. (The woman was a musician with a band called Tetanus Switchblade; she had
two convictions for as-sault.) There was no evidence of undeclared income, or un-usual expenditure. No
phone calls to or from known or suspected dealers in arms or explosives, or their known or suspected
associates. But everything could have been done with pay phones and cash, if she'd organized it carefully.
Mendelsohn wasn't going to put a foot wrong while I was watching. However careful she'd been, though,
she could not have carried out the bombing alone. What I needed was some-one venal, nervous, or
conscience-stricken enough to turn in-formant. I put out word on the usual channels: I'd be willing to pay,
I'd be willing to bargain.
Six weeks after the bombing, I received an anonymous message by datamail:
Be at the Mardi Gras. No wires, no weapons. I'll find you.
29:17:5:31:23:11
I played with the numbers for more than an hour, trying to make sense of them, before I finally showed
them to Elaine.
She said, "Be careful, James."
"Why?"
' 'These are the ratios of the six trace elements we found in the residue from the explosion."
Martin spent the day of the Mardi Gras with friends who'd also be in the parade. I sat in my
air-conditioned office and tuned in to a TV channel which showed the final preparations, interspersed
with talking heads describing the history of the event. In forty years, the Gay and Lesbian Mardi Gras
had been transformed from a series of ugly confrontations with police and local authorities, into a
money-spinning spectacle advertised in tourist brochures around the world. It was blessed by every level
of government, led by politicians and business identities—and the police, like most professions, now had
their own float.
Martin was no transvestite (or muscle-bound leather-fetishist, or any other walking cliche); dressing up in
a flam-boyant costume, one night a year, was as false, as artificial, for him as it would have been for most
heterosexual men. But I think I understood why he did it. He felt guilty that he could "pass for straight" in
the clothes he usually wore, with the speech and manner and bearing which came naturally to him. He'd
never concealed his sexuality from anyone—but it wasn't instantly apparent to total strangers. For him,
taking part in the Mardi Gras was a gesture of solidarity with those gay men who were visible, obvious,
all year round—and who'd borne the brunt of intolerance because of it.
As dusk fell, spectators began to gather along the route. Helicopters from every news service appeared
overhead, turn-ing their cameras on each other to prove to their viewers that this was An Event.
Mounted crowd-control personnel—in something very much like the old blue uniform that had van-ished
when I was a child—parked their horses by the fast-food stands, and stood around fortifying themselves
for the long night ahead.
I didn't see how the bomber could seriously expect to find me once I was mingling with a hundred
thousand other peo-ple—so after leaving the Nexus building, I drove my car around the block slowly,
three times, just in case.
By the time I'd made my way to a vantage point, I'd missed the start of the parade; the first thing I saw
was a long line of people wearing giant plastic heads bearing the features of famous and infamous queers.
(Apparently the word was back in fashion again, officially declared non-perjorative once more, after
several years out of favor.) It was all so Disney I could have gagged—and yes, there was even
Bernadette, the world's first lesbian cartoon mouse. I only recognized three of the humans
portrayed—Patrick White, looking haggard and suitably bemused, Joe Orton, leering sardonically, and J.
Ed-gar Hoover, with a Mephistophelian sneer. Everyone wore their names on sashes, though, for what
that was worth. A young man beside me asked his girlfriend, "Who the hell was Walt Whitman?"
She shook her head. "No idea. Alan Turing?"
"Search me."
They photographed both of them, anyway.
I wanted to yell at the marchers: So what? Some queers were famous. Some famous people were
queer. What a sur-prise! Do you think that means you own them?
I kept silent, of course—while everyone around me cheered and clapped. I wondered how close the
bomber was, how long he or she would leave me sweating. Panopticon—the sur-veillance
contractors—were still following Mendelsohn and all of her known associates, most of whom were
somewhere along the route of the parade, handing out their pamphlets.
None of them appeared to have followed me, though. The bomber was almost certainly someone outside
the network of friends we'd uncovered.
An anti-viral, anti-drug, anti-pollution barrier, alone—or a means of guaranteeing a heterosexual
child. Which do you think would earn the most money? Surrounded by cheering spectators—half of
them mixed-sex couples with children in tow—it was almost possible to laugh off Mendelsohn's fears.
Who, here, would admit that they'd buy a version of the co-coon which would help wipe out the source
of their enter-tainment? But applauding the freak show didn't mean wanting your own flesh and blood to
join it.
An hour after the parade had started, I decided to move out of the densest part of the crowd. If the
bomber couldn't reach me through the crush of people, there wasn't much point be-ing here. A hundred
or so leather-clad women on—noise-enhanced—electric motorbikes went riding past in a crucifix
formation, behind a banner which read DYKES ON BIKES FOR JESUS. I recalled the small group of
fundamentalists I'd passed earlier, their backs to the parade route lest they turn into pillars of salt, holding
up candles and praying for rain.
I made my way to one of the food stalls, and bought a cold hot dog and a warm orange juice, trying to
ignore the smell of horse turds. The place seemed to attract law enforcement types; J. Edgar Hoover
himself came wandering by while I was eating, looking like a malevolent Humpty Dumpty.
As he passed me, he said, "Twenty-nine. Seventeen. Five."
I finished my hot dog and followed him.
He stopped in a deserted side street, behind a supermarket parking lot. As I caught up with him, he took
out a magnetic scanner.
I said, "No wires, no weapons." He waved the device over me. I was telling the truth. "Can you talk
through that thing?"
"Yes." The giant head bobbed strangely; I couldn't see any eye holes, but he clearly wasn't blind.
"Okay. Where did the explosives come from? We know they started off in Singapore, but who was your
supplier here?"
Hoover laughed, deep and muffled. "I'm not going to tell you that. I'd be dead in a week."
"So what do you want to tell me?"
"That I only did the grunt work. Mendelsohn organized everything."
' 'No shit. But what have you got that will prove it? Phone calls? Financial transactions?"
He just laughed again. I was beginning to wonder how many people in the parade would know who'd
played J. Edgar Hoover; even if he clammed up now, it was possible that I'd be able to track him down
later.
That was when I turned and saw six more, identical, Hoov-ers coming around the corner. They were all
carrying baseball bats.
I started to move. Hoover One drew a pistol and aimed it at my face. He said, "Kneel down slowly, with
your hands behind your head."
I did it. He kept the gun on me, and I kept my eyes on the trigger, but I heard the others arrive, and close
into a half-circle behind me.
Hoover One said, "Don't you know what happens to trai-tors? Don't you know what's going to happen
to you?"
I shook my head slowly. I didn't know what I could say to appease him, so I spoke the truth. "How can I
be a traitor? What is there to betray? Dykes on Bikes for Jesus? The Wil-liam S. Burroughs Dancers?"
Someone behind me swung their bat into the small of my back. Not as hard as they might have; I lurched
forward, but I kept my balance.
Hoover One said, "Don't you know any history, Mr. Pig? Mr. Polizei? The Nazis put us in their death
camps. The Rea-ganites tried to have us all die of AIDS. And here you are now, Mr. Pig, working for
the fuckers who want to wipe us off the face of the planet. That sounds like betrayal to me.""
I knelt there, staring at the gun, unable to speak. I couldn't dredge up the words to justify myself. The
truth was too dif-ficult, too gray, too confusing. My teeth started chattering. Nazis. AIDS. Genocide.
Maybe he was right. Maybe I de-served to die.
I felt tears on my cheeks. Hoover One laughed. "Boo hoo, Mr. Pig." Someone swung their bat onto my
shoulders. I fell forward on my face, too afraid to move my hands to break the fall; I tried to get up, but a
boot came down on the back of my neck.
Hoover One bent down and put the gun to my skull. He whispered, "Will you close the case? Lose the
evidence on Catherine? You know, your boyfriend frequents some dan-gerous places; he needs all the
friends he can get."
I lifted my face high enough above the asphalt to reply. "Yes."
"Well done, Mr. Pig."
That was when I heard the helicopter.
I blinked the gravel out of my eyes and saw the ground, far brighter than it should have been; there was a
spotlight trained on us. I waited for the sound of a bullhorn. Nothing happened. I waited for my assailants
to flee. Hoover One took his foot off my neck.
And then they all laid into me with their baseball bats.
I should have curled up and protected my head, but curi-osity got the better of me; I turned and stole a
glimpse of the chopper. It was a news crew, of course, refusing to do any-thing unethical like spoil a
good story just when it was getting telegenic. That much made perfect sense.
But the goon squad made no sense at all. Why were they sticking around, now that the cameras
were running? Just for the pleasure of beating me for a few seconds longer!
Nobody was that stupid, that oblivious to PR.
I coughed up two teeth and hid my face again. They wanted it all to be broadcast. They wanted the
headlines, the backlash, the outrage. ATOMIC TERRORISTS! BABY-POISONERS! BRUTAL
THUGS!
They wanted to demonize the enemy they were pretending to be.
The Hoovers finally dropped their bats and started running. I lay on the ground drooling blood, too weak
to lift my head to see what had driven them away.
A while later, I heard hoofbeats. Someone dropped to the ground beside me and checked my pulse.
I said, "I'm not in pain. I'm happy. I'm delirious."
Then I passed out.
On his second visit, Martin brought Catherine Mendelsohn to the hospital with him. They showed me a
recording of LEI's media conference, the day after the Mardi Gras—two hours before Mendelsohn's
was scheduled to take place.
Janet Lansing said, ' 'In the light of recent events, we have no choice but to go public. We would have
preferred to keep this technology under wraps for commercial reasons, but in-nocent lives are at stake.
And when people turn on their own kind—"
I burst the stitches in my lips laughing.
LEI had bombed their own laboratory. They'd irradiated their own cells. And they'd hoped that I'd cover
up for Men-delsohn, once the evidence led me to her, out of sympathy with her cause. Later, with a
tip-off to an investigative re-porter or two, the cover-up would have been revealed.
The perfect climate for their product launch.
Since I'd continued with the investigation, though, they'd had to make the best of it: sending in the
Hoovers, claiming to be linked to Mendelsohn, to punish me for my diligence.
Mendelsohn said, "Everything LEI leaked about me—the cobalt, my key to the vault—was already spelt
out in the pamphlets I'd printed, but that doesn't seem to cut much ice with the murdochs. I'm the Harbor
Bridge Gamma Ray Ter-rorist now."
"You'll never be charged."
"Of course not. So I'll never be found innocent, either."
I said, ' 'When I'm out of here, I'm going after them.'' They wanted impartiality? An investigation
untainted by prejudice? They'd get exactly what they paid for, this time. Minus the tunnel vision.
Martin said softly, "Who's going to employ you to do that?"
I smiled, painfully. "LEI's insurance company."
When they'd left, I dozed off.
I woke suddenly, from a dream of suffocation.
Even if I proved that the whole thing had been a marketing exercise by LEI—even if half their directors
were thrown in prison, even if the company itself was liquidated—the tech-nology would still be owned
by someone.
And one way or another, in the end, it would be sold.
That's what I'd missed, in my fanatical neutrality: you can't sell a cure without a disease. So even if I was
right to be neutral—even if there was no difference to fight for, no dif-ference to betray, no difference to
preserve—the best way to sell the cocoon would always be to invent one. And even if it would be no
tragedy at all if there was nothing left but heterosexuality in a century's time, the only path which could
lead there would be one of lies, and wounding, and vilifica-tion.
Would people buy that, or not?
I was suddenly very much afraid that they would.
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