THIS evening, as I was about to enter my home, I saw two little girls bouncing a ball solemnly on the pavement to the rhythm of a very old little girls' chant. My lips must have gone gray as the sudden pressure of my set jaws numbed all feeling, blood pounded in my right temple; and I knew, that whatever might happen, I couldn't take another step until they had finished.
"One, two, three alary—
I spy Mistress Sary
Sitting on a bumble-ary.
Just like a little fairy!"
As the girl finished the last smug note,
I came to life. I unlocked the door of my
house and locked it behind me hurriedly. I
switched on the. lights in the foyer, the
kitchen, the library. And then, for long
forgotten minutes, I paced the floor until
my breatliing slowed and the horrible
memory cowered back into the crevice of
the years.
That verse! I don't hate children—no
matter what my friends say, I don't hate
children—but why do they have to sing
that stupid, little song? Whenever I'm
around. . . . As if the unspeakably vicious
creatures know what it does, to me. . . ".
Sarietta Hawn came to live with Mrs.
Clayton when her father died in the West
Indies. Her mother had been Mrs. Clayton's
only sister, and her fatlier, a British
colonial administrator, had no known relatives.
It was. only natural that the child
should be sent across the Caribbean to join
my landlady's establishment in Nanville.
It was natural, too, that she should be
enrolled in the Nanville Grade School
where I taught arithmetic and science to the
accompaniment of Miss Drury's English,
history and geography.
"That Hawn child is impossible, unbelievable!"
Miss Drury stormed into my
classroom at the morning recess. "She's a
freak, an impudent, ugly little freak!"
I waited for the echoes to die down in
the empty classroom and considered Miss
Drury's dowdy, Victorian figure witli
amusement. Her heavily corseted bosom
heaved and the thick skirts and petticoats
islapped against her ankles as she walked
feverishly in front, of my desk. I leaned
back and braced my arms against my head.
"Now you better be careful. I've been
very busy for the past two weeks with a
new term and all, and I haven't had a
chance to take a good look at Sarietta. Mrs.
Clayton doesn't have any children of her
own, tliough, and since the girl arrived on
Thursday the woman has been falling all
over her with aflFection. She won't stand
for punishing Sarietta like—well, like you
did Joey Richards last week. Neither will
the school board for that matter."
Miss Drury tossed her head angrily.
"When you've been teaching as long as I
have, young man, you'll learn tliat sparing
the rod just does not work with stubborn
brats like Joey Richards. He'll grow up
to be the same kind of no-account drunk
as his father if I don't give him a taste of
birch/-whenever he gets uppity."
"All right. Just remember that several
members of the school board are beginning
to watch you very closely. Now what's
tliis about Sarietta Hawn being a freak?
She's an albino, as I recall; lack of pigmentation
is due to a chance factor of heredity,
not at all frealcish, and is experienced by
thousands of people who lead normal
happy lives."
"Heredity!" A contemptuous sniff.
"More of that new nonsense.. She's a freak,
1 tell you, as nasty a little devil as Satan
ever made. When I asked her to tell the
class about her home in the West Indies,
she stood up and squeaked, "That is a book
closed to fools and simpletons. Well! If
the recess bell hadn't rung at that moment,
I tell you I'd have laced into her'right then
and there."
She glanced down at her watch pendant.
"Recess . almost over. You'd better have
the bell system checked, Mr. Flynn: I think
it rang a minute too early this morning.
And don't allow that Hawn child to give you any sass." -
"None of the children ever do." I
grinned as "the door slammed behind her.
A moment later there was laughter and
chatter as the room filled with eight-year-olds.
I BEGAN my lesson on long division
with a covert glance at the last row.
Sarietta Hawn sat stiffly there, her hands
neatly clasped on the desk. Against the
mahogany veneer of the classroom furniture,
her long, ashen pigtails and absolutely
white skin seemed to acquire a yellowish
tinge. Her eyes were slightly yellow, too,
great colorless irises under semi-transparent
lids that never blinked while I looked at
her. ."
She was an ugly child. Her mouth was
far too generous for beauty; her ears stood
cut almost at right angles to her head;
and the long tip of her nose had an odd
' curve down and in to her upper lip. She
wore a snow-white frodk of severe cut that
added illogical years to her thin body.
When I finished the arithmetic lesson,
I walked up to the lonely little figure in
the rear. "Wouldn't you like to sit a little closer to nay desk.?" I asked in as gentle a
voice as I could. "You'd find it easier to
see the blackboard."
She rose and dropped a swift curtsey. "I
thank you very much, sir,.but the sunlight at the front of the classroom hurts my eyes.
There is always more comfort for me in
darkness and in shade." The barest, awkward
flash of a grateful smile.
I nodded, feeling uncomfortable at her
formal, correct sentences.
During the science lesson, I felt her eyes
upon me wherever I moved. I found myself
fumbling at the equipment under that
unwinking scrutiny, and the children, sensing
the cause, began to whisper and crane
their necks to the back of the room.
A case of mounted butterflies slid oat
of my hands. I stopped to pick it up. Suddenly
a great gasp rippled over the room,
coming simultaneously from thirty little
throats.
"Look! She's doing it again!" I straightened.
Sarietta Hawn hadn't moved from her
strange, stiff position. But her hair was a,
rich chestnut now; her eyes were'blue; her
cheeks and lips bore a delicate rose tint.
My fingers dug into the unyielding
surface of my desk. Impossible! Yet could
light and shade play, such fantastic tricks?
But —impossible!
Even as I gaped, unconscious of my
pedagogical dignity, the child seemed to
blush, and a shadow over her straighten. I
went back to cocoons and Lepidoptera with a quavering voice.
A moment later, I noticed that her face and hair were of purest white once more. I wasn't interested in explanations, however; neither was the class. The lesson was ruined.
"She did exactly the same thing in my class," Miss Drury exclaimed at limch. "Exactly the same thing! Only it seemed to me that she was a dark brunette, with velvet black hair and snapping black eyes. It was just after she'd called me a fool— the nerve of that snip!—and I was readiing for the birch rod, when she seemed to go all dark and swarthy. I'd have made her change to red tliough, I can tell you, if that bell hadn't rung a minute too early."
"Maybe," I said. "But with that sort of delicate coloring any change in lighting would play wild tricks with your vision. I'm not so sure now that I saw it after all. Sarietta Hawn is no chameleon."
THE old teacher tightened her lips until they were a pale, pink line cutting across her wrinkled face. She shook her head and leaned across the crumb-bespattered table. "No chameleon. A witch. I know! And the bible commands us to destroy witches, to burn them out of Iffe."
My laugh echoed unconfortably around the dirty school basement which was our lunchroom. "You can't believe that! An eight-year-old girl—"
"All the more reason to catch her before she grows up and does real harm. I tell you, Mr. Flynn, I know'. One of my ancestors burned thirty witches in New England during the trials. My family has a special, sense for the creatures. There can be no peace between us!"
The other children shared an awed agreement with Miss Drury. They began calling the albino child "Mistress Sary." Sarietta, on the other hand, seemed to relish the nickname. When Joey Richards tore into a group of children who were following her down the street and shouting the song, she stopped him.
"Leave them alone, Joseph," she warned him in her curious adult phraseology. "They are quite correct: I am just like a little fairy.
And Joey turned his freckled, puzzled face and unclenched his fists and walked slowly back to her side. He worshiped her. Possibly because the two of them were outcasts in that juvenile community, possibly because they were both orphans—his eternally soused fatfier was slightly worse than no parent at all—they were always together. I'd find him squatting at her feet in the humid twilight when I came out on the boarding house, porch for my nightcap of the fresh air. She would pause in mid-sentence, one tiny forefinger still poised sharply. Both of them would sit in absolute silence until I left the porch.
Joey liked me. a little. Thus I was one of the few privileged to hear of Mistress Sary's earlier life. I turned one evening when I was out for a stroll to see Joey trotting, behind me. He had just left the porch.
"Gee," he sighed. "Stbgolo sure taught Mistress Sary a lot, I wish that guy was around to take care of Old Dreary. He'd teach her all right, all right."
"Stogolo?"
"Sure. He was the witch-doctor who put the devil-birth curse on Sary's mother before Saty was Born 'cause she had hun put in jail. Then when Sary's mother died giving birth, Sary's father started drinking, she
says, worse'n my pop. Only she found Stogolo and made friends with him. They mixed blood and swore peace on the grave of Sary's mother. ' And he taught her voodoo' an' the devil-birth curse an' how to make love charms from hog liver an'—"
Joey liked me. a little. Thus I was one of the few privileged to hear of Mistress Sary's earlier life. I turned one evening when I was out for a stroll to see Joey trotting, behind me. He had just left the porch.
"Gee," he sighed. "Stbgolo sure taught Mistress Sary a lot, I wish that guy was around to take care of Old Dreary. He'd teach her all right, all right."
"Stogolo?"
"Sure. He was the witch-doctor who put the devil-birth curse on Sary's mother before Saty was Born 'cause she had hun put in jail. Then when Sary's mother died giving birth, Sary's father started drinking, she
says, worse'n my pop. Only she found Stogolo and made friends with him. They mixed blood and swore peace on the grave of Sary's mother. ' And he taught her voodoo' an' the devil-birth curse an' how to make love charms from hog liver an'—"
"I'm surprised at you, Joey," I interrupted. "Taking.in that silly superstition! A boy who does as well as you in science! Mistress Sary—Sarietta grew up in a primitive community where people didn't know any better. But you do!"
He scuffed the weeds at the edge of the sidewalk with a swinging foot. "Yeah," he said in a low voice. "Yeah." I'm sorry I moitioned it, Mr. Flynn."
He scuffed the weeds at the edge of the sidewalk with a swinging foot. "Yeah," he said in a low voice. "Yeah." I'm sorry I moitioned it, Mr. Flynn."
THEN be was off, a lithe streak in white blouse and corduroy knickers, tearing along the-sidewalk to his home. I regretted my interruption, then, since Joey was rarely confidential and Sarietta spoke only when
spoken to, even with her aunt.
I've regretted it much, much more ever since.
The weather grew surprisingly warmer. "I declare," Miss Drury told me one morning, "I've never seen a winter like this in my life. Indian summers and heat waves are one thing, but to go on this way day
after day without any sign of a break. Land sake's!"
"Scientists say the entire earth is developing a wanner climate. Of course, it's almost imperceptible right now, btit the Gulf Stream—"
"The Gulf Stream," she ridiculed. She wore the same starched and heavy clothes as always and the heat was reducing her short temper to a blazing point "The Gulf Stream! Ever since that Hawn brat came to live in Nanville the world's been turning turtle. My chalk is always breaking, my desk drawers get stuck, the erasers fall apart—the little witch is trying to put a spell on me!"
"Now look here." I stopped and faced her with my back to the sdiool building. "This has gone far enough. If you do have to believe in witchcraft, keep it but of your relations with the children. They're here to absorb knowledge, not the hysterical imaginings of a—of a—"
"Of a sour old maid. Yes, go ahead, say it," she snarled. "I know you think it, Mr. Flynn. You fawn all over her so she leaves you be. But I know what I know and so does that evil little thing you call Sarietta Hawn. It's war between us, and the all-embracing battle between good and evil will never be over until one or the other of us is dead!" She turned in a spiral of skirts and swept up the path into the schoolhouse.
I began to fear for her sanity then. I had not yet learned to fear for mine.
spoken to, even with her aunt.
I've regretted it much, much more ever since.
The weather grew surprisingly warmer. "I declare," Miss Drury told me one morning, "I've never seen a winter like this in my life. Indian summers and heat waves are one thing, but to go on this way day
after day without any sign of a break. Land sake's!"
"Scientists say the entire earth is developing a wanner climate. Of course, it's almost imperceptible right now, btit the Gulf Stream—"
"The Gulf Stream," she ridiculed. She wore the same starched and heavy clothes as always and the heat was reducing her short temper to a blazing point "The Gulf Stream! Ever since that Hawn brat came to live in Nanville the world's been turning turtle. My chalk is always breaking, my desk drawers get stuck, the erasers fall apart—the little witch is trying to put a spell on me!"
"Now look here." I stopped and faced her with my back to the sdiool building. "This has gone far enough. If you do have to believe in witchcraft, keep it but of your relations with the children. They're here to absorb knowledge, not the hysterical imaginings of a—of a—"
"Of a sour old maid. Yes, go ahead, say it," she snarled. "I know you think it, Mr. Flynn. You fawn all over her so she leaves you be. But I know what I know and so does that evil little thing you call Sarietta Hawn. It's war between us, and the all-embracing battle between good and evil will never be over until one or the other of us is dead!" She turned in a spiral of skirts and swept up the path into the schoolhouse.
I began to fear for her sanity then. I had not yet learned to fear for mine.
That was the day my arithmetic class entered slowly, quietly as if a bubble of silence enveloped them. The moment the door shut behind the last pupil, the bubble broke and whispers splattered all over the room.
"Where's Sarietta Hawn?" I askedy "And Joey Richards," I amended, unable to find him either.
Louise Bell rose, her starched pink dress curving in front of her' scrawny body. "They've been naughty. Miss Dmry caught Joey cutting a lock of hair off her head and she started to whip him. Then Mistress Sary stood up and said she wasn't to touc'n him because he was under her protection. So Miss Dmry sent us all out and now I bet she's going to whip them both. She's real mad!"
I started for the back door rapidly. Abruptly a scream began. Sarietta's voice! I tore down the corridor. The scream rose to a high treble, wavered for a second. Then stopped.
As I jolted open the door of Miss Druxy's classroom, I was prepared for anything, including murder. I was not prepared for what I saw. I stood, my hand grasping the door knob, absorbing the tense tableau.
"Where's Sarietta Hawn?" I askedy "And Joey Richards," I amended, unable to find him either.
Louise Bell rose, her starched pink dress curving in front of her' scrawny body. "They've been naughty. Miss Dmry caught Joey cutting a lock of hair off her head and she started to whip him. Then Mistress Sary stood up and said she wasn't to touc'n him because he was under her protection. So Miss Dmry sent us all out and now I bet she's going to whip them both. She's real mad!"
I started for the back door rapidly. Abruptly a scream began. Sarietta's voice! I tore down the corridor. The scream rose to a high treble, wavered for a second. Then stopped.
As I jolted open the door of Miss Druxy's classroom, I was prepared for anything, including murder. I was not prepared for what I saw. I stood, my hand grasping the door knob, absorbing the tense tableau.
Joey Richards was backed against the
blackboard, squeezing a long tendril of
brownish hair in his sweaty right palm.
Mistress Sary stood in front of Miss Drury,
her head bent to expose a brutal red welt
on the back of her dialky neck. And Miss
Drury was looking stupidly at a fragment
of birch in her hand; the rest of the rod
lay in scattered pieces at her feet.
THE children saw me and came to life.
Mistress Sary straightened and with set
lips moved toward the door. Joey Richards
leaned forward. He rubbed the lock of
hair against the back of the teacher's dress,
she completely oblivious to him. When he
joined the girl at the door, I saw that the
hair glistened with the perspiration picked
up from Miss Drury's blouse.
At a slight nod frooi Mistress Sary, the
boy passed the lock of hair over to her.
She placed it very carefully in the pocket
of her frock.
Then, without a single word, they both
skipped around me ocf their way to join
the rest of tlie class.
Evidently they were unharmed, at least
seriously.
I walked over to Miss Drury. She was
trembling violently and talking to herself.
She never removed her eyes from the fragment
of birch.
"It just flew to.pieces. Flew to pieces!
I was—when it flew to pieces!"
Placing an arm about her waist, I guided
the spinster to a chair. She sat down and
continued mumbling.
"Once—I Just struck her once. I was
raising my arm for another blow—the birch
was over my head:—when it flew to pieces.
Joey was, off in a corner—he couldn't have
done it—the birch just flew to pieces." She
stared at the piece of wood in her hand and
rocked her body back and forth slowly,
like one mourning a great loss.
I had a class. I got her a glass of water.
notified the janitor to take care of her and
hurried back.
Somebody, in a childish spirit of ridicule
or meanness, had scrawled a large verse
across the blacldboard in my room:
"One, two, three dory—
I spy Mistress Sary
Sitting on a bumble-ary,
Just like a little fairy!"
I turned angrily to the class. I noticed
a change in. seating arrangements. Joey
Richards' desk was empty.
He had taken his place with Mistress
Sary in the long, deep shadows at the back
of the room.
TO MY breathless relief. Mistress. Sary
didn't mention the incident. As always
she was silent at the supper table, her eyes
fixed rigidly on her plate. She excused herself
the moment the meal was over and
slipped away. Mrs. Clayton was evidently
too bustling and talkative to have heard of
it. There would be no repercussions from
that quarter.
After supper I walked over to the oldfashioned
gabled, house where Miss Drury
lived with her relatives. Lakes of perspiration
formed on my body and I found it all
but impossible to concentrate. Every leaf
on every tree hung motionless in the humid,
breezeless night.
The old teacher was feeling much better.
But she refused to drop the matter; to do,
as I suggested, her best to reestablish amity.
She rocked herself back and forth in great
scoops of the colonial rocking-chair and
shook her head violently.
"No, no, no! I won't make friends with
that imp of darkness: sooner shake hands
witli Beelzebub himself. She hates me now
worse than ever because—don't you see—. I forced her' to- declare herself. I've made
her expose her witchery. Now—now I must
grapple with her and overthrow her and Him who is her mentor. I must think, I
must—only it's so devilishly hot. So very
hot!' My mind—my mind doesn't seem to
work right." She wiped her forehead with the heavy cashmere shawl.
As I strolled bade, I fumbled unhappily
for a solution. Something would break
soon at this rate; then the school board
would be down upon us with an investigation
and the school would go to pot. I
tried to go over the possibilities calmly but
my clothes stuck to my body and breathing
was almost drudgery.
Our porch was deserted. I saw movement
in the garden and hurried over. Two
shadows resolved into Mistress Sary and
Joey Richards. They staled up as if waiting
for me to declare myself.
She was squatting on the ground and
holding a. doll in her hands. A small wax
doll with brownish hair planted in her
head that was caught in a stern bun just
like the bun Miss Drury affected. A stiff
little doll with a dirty piece of muslin for
a dress cut in the same long, severe pattern
as all of Miss Drury's clothes. A carefully
executed caricature in wax.
"Don't you think that's a bit silly," I
managed, to ask at last. "Miss Drury is
sufficiently upset and sorry for what she
did for you to play upon her superstitions
in this horrible way. I'm sure if you try
hard enough, we can all be friends."
They rose, Sarietta clutching the doll
to her breast. "It is not^silly, Mr. Flynn.
That bad woman must be taught a lesson.
A terrible lesson she v/ill never forget.
Excuse my abruptness; sir, but I have much
work to do this night."
And then she was gone, a. rustling patch
of whiteness that slipped up the stairs and
disappeared into the sleeping house.
I turned to the boy.
"Joey, you're a pretty smart fellow. Man
to man now—"
"Excuse me, Mr. Flyrm." He started for
the gate. "I—Igot to go home." I heard
the rhythmic pad, of his sneakers on the
sidewarlk. grow faint and dissolve in :the
distance. I had evidently lost his allegiance.
Sleep came hard that night. I tossed on
entangling sheets, dozed, came awake and
dozed again.
ABOUT midnight, I woke shuddering.
I punched the pillow and was about
to attempt unconsciousness once more when
my ears caught a faint note of sound. I
recognized it. That was what had reached
into my dreams and tugged my eyes open
to fear. I sat unright
Sarietta's voice!
She was singing a song, & rapid soaa
,with unrecognizable words. Higher ana
higher up the scale it went, and faster and
faster as if there were some eerie deadline
she had to meet. At last, when it seemed
that she would shrill beyond the limits of
human audibility, she paused. Then, on a.
note so high that my ear drums ached, came
a drawn-out, flowing "Kunmoo O Stogoloooo!"
Silence.
Two hours later, I managed to fall asleep
again.
THE sun burning redly through my eyelids
wakened me. I dressed, feeling oddly listless and apathetic. I wasn't hungry
and, for the first morning of my life,
went without breakfast.
The heat came up from the sidewalk
and drenched my face and hands. My feet
felt like burning concrete through the soles
of my shoes. Even the shade of the school building was an unnoticeable relief.
Miss Drury's appetite was gone too. She
left her carefully wrapped lettuce sandwiches
untouched on the basement table.
She supported her head on her thin hands
and stared at me out of red-rimmed eyes.
"It's so hot!" she whispered. "I can hardly
stand it. Why everyene feels so sorry
forthat Hawn brat, I can't understand. Just
because I made her sit in the sunlight.' I've
been suffering from this heat a thousand
times more than she."
"You . . . . riiade—Sarietta . . . sit—
in—"
"Of course I did! She's no privileged
character. Always in the back of the room
where it's cool and comfortable. I made
her change her desk so that she's right
near the large window, where the sunlight
streams in. And she feels it too, let me
tell you. ~ Only—ever since, I've been feeling
worse. As if I'm falling apart. I didn't
have a wink of sleep last night—those
terrible, terrible dreams: great hands pulling and mauling me knives pricking my
face and my hands—"
"But the child can't stand sunlight! She's
an albino."
"Albino, fiddlesticks! She's a witch
She'll be making wax dolls next. Joey Ricliards didn't try to cut my hair for a
joke. He had orders to— Ooh!" She
doubled in her chair. "Those cramps!"
I waited until the attad< subsided and
watched her sweaty, haggard face. 'Tunny
that you should mention wax dolls. You
have the girl so convinced that she's a
witch that she's actually making them. Believe
it or not, last night, after I left
you—"
She had "jumped to her feet and was
rigid attention. One arm supporting her
body against a steam pipe, she stood staring
at me.
"She made a wax doll. Of me?"
"Well, you know how a child is. It was
her idea of what you looked like. A little
crude in design, but a good piece of workmanship.
Personally, I think her talent
merits encouragement."
Miss Drury hadn't heard me. "Cramps!"
she mused. , "And I thought they were cramps! She's been sticking pins.into me!
The little— I've got to— But I must be
careful. Yet fast. Fast."
I got to my feet and tried to put my hand
on her shoxzlder across the luncheon table.
"Now pull yourself together. Surely this
is going altogether too far."
She leaped away and stood near the stairs
talking rapidly to herself. "I can't use a
stick or a club she controls them. But my
hands—if I can get my hands on her and .
choke fast enough, she can't stop me. But
I mustn't give her a chance," she almost
sobbed, "I mustn't give her a chance!"
Then she had leaped up the stairs in a
sudden, determined rush.
I swept, the table out of my way and
bolted after her.
MOST of the children were eating their
lunches along the long board fence
at the end of the school yard. But they had
stopped now and were watching something
with frightened fascination. Sandwiches
hung suspended in front of open mouths.
I followed the direction of their stares.
Miss Drury was slipping along the side
of the building like an upright, skirted
panther. She staggered now and then and
held on to a wall. Some two feet in frpiit
of het, Sarietta Hawn and Joey Richards sat in the shade. They were looking intently
at a wax doll in a muslin dress that
had been set on the cement just_outside
the fringe of coolness. It lay on its back
in the direct sunlight and, even at that,
distance, I could see it was melting.
"Hi," I shouted. "Miss Drury! Be sensible!"
I ran for them.
At my cry, both children looked up
startled. Miss Drury launched herself forward
and fell, rather than leaped, on the
little girl. Joey Richards grabbed the doll
and rolled out of the way toward me. I
tripped over him and hit the ground with
a bone-breaking wallop. As I turned in
mid-air, I caught a fast glimpse of Miss
Dairy's right hand flailing over the girl.
Sarietta had huddled into a pathetic little
bundle under the teache.r's body.
I sat up facing Joey. Behind me the
children were screaming as I had never
heard them scream before.
Joey was squeezing the doll with both
hands.' As I watched, not daring to remove
my eyes, the wax—already softened by the
sunlight—lost its shape and cajme through
. the cracks in his tight freckled fingers. It
dripped through the muslin dress and fell
in blobs on the school yard cement.
Over and above the yells of the children,
Miss Drury's voice rose to a mind-cracking
scream and went on and on and on.
Joey looked over my shoulder with rolling
eyes. But he kept on squeezing the doll
and I kept my eyes on it desperately, prayerfully,
while the screaming went on all about
me and the immense sun pushed the perspiration
steadily down my face. As the
wax oozed through his fingers, he began
singing suddenly in a breathless, hysterical
caclcle. Louder and louder grew his voice
imtil it seemed to dominate the world:
"One, two, three alary—
I spy Mistress Sary
Sitting on a bumble-ary,
Just like a little fairy!"
And Miss Druiy screamed and the children
yelled and Joey sang, but I kept my
eyes on the little wax doll. I kept my eyes
on the little wax doll drooling through the
cracks of Joey Richards' strained, little fingers.
I kept my eyes on the doll. . .
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